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MY LIFE IS FUCKED UP!!!!!!!   
06:03pm 09/03/2004
 
mood: depressed
music: blink 182 miss you miss you
Well its happened im really fucked up in the head and my life is fucked !! lets just say my dad is have another child in tyland yea u heard meh! and im moving to flordia with my mom yeahhhh how fucked up is that and on top of that i have a drinking problem well lets say i have a huge drug problem!!! grrrrrrr i need help !!! im so fucked up i need my family but it seem like every one went to hell! no one wants to talk to anyone but ill get through it i hope i went to church last week to ask for help from the big guy! and i just broke down crying about everything. i dont want to do anything like leaving my home cuz my mom needs me her mother just died! but yea that wats going on with me! so i havent been talking so much on line cuz well ya know. im grounded out the ass for dring at school and getting a ticket for underage drinking at a party. so yea thats all for know but ill be back with more shit to say. I just need some time to myself for awhile.
But if ya wanna help you can talk to meh or give me some advice!		  
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LOVE sucks   
10:04pm 13/02/2004
  HEY ALL YOU HAPPY CAMPERS THAT HAVE DATES FOR V-Day i hope ya shit bricks!!! no just kiding haahahahahahhaahhahaha so yea fuck off with your date cuz i have a date with Mr. i'm ganna get shitfaced for v-day well just wannted to say HAPPY V-DAY SO YEA ITS OK TO GET DRUNK AND HAVE LOTS OF SEX ITS GOOD FOR YOU!!! YOU FIND LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES!! K PEACE OUT TOODLES  
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blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh   
12:36pm 11/02/2004
 
mood: dorky
wow people can be down right meanies!! ok well valentines is this weekend yea and im like wat holycow really ! i have nuffin to do every one that i hang out with they all have dates or somthing else to do than hang out with meh!!! so if anyone wants to hangout with meh give me a call at 605-1466!! wow that was lame im such a dork owell it sounds so depert. but wat r ya going to do?
Anywho yea ok well that just how im doin this valentines day alright! grrrrrr i stayed home sick but yea its just another excuss for me not to be in skool cuz i rather play vedio games and sleep in.

well then im outta here so yea give me a shout back if ya wanna do somthin! k peace		  
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im pisssssssed offffffff   
03:21pm 07/02/2004
  today sucks ass i fucking hate life ggggrr wat the fuck my parents are big dushh bagggs!!!!! Anywho i give up on just tryintg to inpress my parents it seems everthing i do or say is wrong. i dont understand y they try to scare me into moooving out when im 18 which i never even said i was moving out !!! so wat the fuck i hate the way my dad treats my mom so i asked him to move out but that doesnt mean i dont love him i just need my space and my mom needs to be on her own! The thing is its just hard being me and i get fedddd up on alll this bullshit that they say they can do to me when im 18! So ya wat ever ill let them do wat tne fuck they wat to do but when it comes to my life its fucked .Thats all i got to say i mean wat do they want from me? One thing that just pissed me off the most is that i wanna just be on my marry way and grow up acked my age do wat other 18 year olds do. and yea im small but that dont mean shit! Like i have a younger bro and he does wat ever the fuck he wants and its shit i get so pissed cuz its like i dont ever get to do anything. I dont know the todo anymore so i give up!! they winn. My mom thinks when we move ill be better off in downsouth then here so that mean im going to change i dont think so im u cant just change me i mean i like the way iam. so she can just kiss my asss cuz im not changing who i am. so yea i dont know its just one of those days that everthing goes down the drain!!!

hoping when i get up tomarrow thing will be better then wat they were today .		  
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home sick   
10:14am 05/02/2004
  well im home sick and for me im not really sick im just waiting for this guy brandon to come over..... Anywho this is great cuz i just had a day off and yea i fake sick to have another!!!!!!! Yea i should really be at skool but I love living life to its fullists I dont think u live life in a box were people control u. Most of the shit they teach u dont even need for life but yea mybe its just me !!!!!! Well then its a new day and im going to injoy it!!  
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05:46pm 04/02/2004
  IIIIIII'''''''MMMMMMM BBBBBBOOOOOORRRRRRREEEEEEEDDDDDDD
and I think it's appropriate to start off with the basics.
ABOUT ME:
+name: Tosha (pronounced tasha for all u stupid assholes that can't speak russian)
+nicknames: Biscuit
+birthday: 04/03/86
+piercings: nipples
+tattoos: none, but I'll get them
+height: 4'11
+shoe size: 6 1/2
+hair color: right now its auburn
+hair length: short
+eye color: grey
+siblings: 1 but hes a bitch.. let's not talk about him

FAVORITE:
+food: everything.. I eat like a bear shits in the woods.
+song: elenor rigby-the beatles.. + many others
+book: Go Ask Alice
+thing to do: smoke
+things to talk about: video games
+sports: football.. I love playing football
+drinks: bicardi o!!
+clothes: don't pay attention much.. i dress in the dark
+holiday: 4/20 BIOTCH!!
+new nerdy saying: poop
+ever cried over a guy: yes
+ever lied to someone: yes
+ever been in a fist fight: yes
+ever been arrested: wow this is getting repetitive.
+disney movie: Alice In Wonderland
+scent: any typ of inscence and vanilla
+word: poooooooop
+nickname: grrr
+guy name: hmmm... tuffy... Skyler?
+girl name: Ramey and Lilly
+eye color: Bright bright eyes
+flower: roses, and lillys.. because my friends middle name is rose and mine is lilly.. how cool?
+piercing: love um.. huuuuuuge turn on.
+actress: chick from Requim For a Dream
+actor: jim bruer.. SOOO funny
+Salad dressing: blue chese
+Color of socks: MULTICOLORD!!
+Toothpaste: Aquafresh
+Animal: snakes! hssssssss

DO YOU PREFER:
+ flowers or angels: flowers
+grey or gray: grey.. its proper
+color or black-and-white photos: black and white
+ lust or love: thats a hard question cuz i do both.
+sunrise or sunset: sunset
+M&Ms or Skittles: skittles
+rap or rock: rock
+staying up late or waking up early: staying up late
+TV or radio: radio
+eating apples or oranges: oranges
+simple of complicated: complicated.. because im a complicated girl.
+being hot or cold: hot
+tall members of the opposite sex: well im short.. so not really tall
+sun or moon: moon
+emeralds or rubies: emeralds
+left or right: left
+having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend: 10 acquaintances and 1 best friend
+sun or rain: rain
+vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream: chocolate
+boys or girls: boys, girls are bitchy
+green beans or carrots: green beans.
+low fat or fat free: low fat
+Sweet or Sour: Sweet
+Old or New: old
+Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi
+Soft or Hard: Hard
+Yesterday or Tomarrow: Tomarrow
+Red or Blue: Red
+Fast or Slow: deppends
+Blind or Deaf: Deaf
+Open or Closed: open
+Bath or Shower: Shower
+Black or White: Black
+Ocean or Forest: ocean
+Dogs or Cats: both.. I LOVE UM ALLLLLL
+Day or Night: Night
+Cremation or Burial: Burial
+Even or odd: odd, because i am..
+City or Countryside: countryside.. usto live there.
+Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate
+Pen or Pencil: Pen, hate pencils
+Summer or Winter: summer
+Destiny or Choice: destiny, i like believeing in something
+Alone or Together: Together
+Silver or Gold: Silver

MISCELLANEOUS
+What is your biggest fear in the world: i have a tremendouse fear of spiders.
+Kids or no kids: kids, but not for a while
+Half empty or half full: half full
+Mustard or ketchup: honey mustard?
+Hard cover books or soft cover books: hard cover
+Newspaper or magazine: Magazine
+Sandals or sneakers: Sneakers
+Wonder or amazement: Wonder
+Red car or white car: Red car
+Happy and poor or sad and rich: Happy and poor
+Singing or dancing: dancing
+Hugging or kissing: kissings cool.. if u want i can kiss u.. malllaaohhalalla (THATS THE MAKEOUT SOUND OF MY TOUNGE)
+Corduroy or plain: corduroy
+Purple or green: green
+Blondes, brunettes: brown heads..

LAST:
+movie you rented: pi
+movie you bought: akira
+song you listened to: forgot the name of the song but its by police.
+song that was stuck in your head: I wear my sunglasses at night
+cd you bought: radiohead- kid A
+cd you listened to: led zeplin
+person you called: katie
+person that called you: brandon.. hot hippay boi!
+tv show you've watched: familly guy
+person you're thinking of: brandon

DO:
+you have a bf or gf: yes, my gf danielle
+you have a crush on someone: yes
+you wish you could live somewhere else: yea... but ill miss everyone here
+you think about suicide: .. may b sometimes...
+you believe in online dating: not unless u no them from far away
+others find you attractive: yes
+you want more piercings: eyebrow
+you drink: hella yea
+you do drugs: of coarse
+you smoke: LIKE A MONKEY
+you like cleaning: sometimes
+you like roller coasters: with a passion
+you write in cursive or print: print

FOR OR AGAINST:
+long distance relationships: i hate them
+using someone: i never would.. its morally wrong
+suicide: i think its rude
+killing people: somtimes.
+teenage smoking: im for it
+premarital sex: i like sex?.. its a sport!!.. my sport!
+driving drunk: against
+gay/lesbian relationship: im in one
+soap operas: i hate those damned things!

NUMBER:
+of times I have been in love: many
+of times I have had my heart broken: all the times ive been in love.. plus a few extra.
+of hearts I have broken: once
+of girls I have kissed: too many
+of boys I have kissed: too many again
+of girls I have slept with: ... define, "slept with"
+of boys I have slept with: ummm... 5?.. to 10
+of drugs taken illegally: ... now wut kind of a question is that! damn hippy
+of people I would classify as true, could trust with my
life type friends: i have many
+of people I consider my enemy: may be one
+of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 12
+of things in my past that I regret: i regret nothing... unless ur will.. i regret u!

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
+pretty: sure?..
+funny: IM SSOOOOOOO FUNNY!.. i love myself.
+hot: if thats wut u want
+friendly: yes.. im confident on that one
+amusing: mmhmm
+fat: im skiny
+loveable: yes
+pessimistic: huh??
+optimistic: yes
+caring: yes
+dorky: all the time

RANDOM QUESTIONS
+When was your last hospital check-in: a whiiiiile ago
+Where do you see yourself in 10 years: Idk
+Have you ever been convicted of a crime: no
+What do you do most often when you are bored: ... smoke?
+Are you open minded: yes
+Can you be in love with two people at the same time: i guess..its worked before
+What's on your answering machine: ohhhhh i leave um crazy confused!
+What is the coolest gift you've ever received: my ps2
+What's the coolest gift you've given: a glow in the dark bunny named mr. wuggles
+Have you sent or received flowers in the past year: no
+Assuming you have one, what's sitting on your computer
monitor: nothing.. im a minimalist
+About how many books do you own: 16
+About how many of those have you read: 16

+Do you collect anything: ya.. beads, i can blow glass, my dad tought me.. candles
+Do you own a calendar or date book: yes.. maralyn monroe baby.
+When you're jotting down notes, do you print or
write: i print
+When you doodle, what do you draw: anything that pops up.. (mostly mushrooms)		  
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